Dream Diary...

So I've been trying to document my dreams I've been having these past few days. Why you ask? I'm not sure, I guess because I've been having more and more vivid dreams lately. So I've consulted this dream dictionary (mainly for fun) and this is what some of my dreams "might" indicate. Anything highlighted in italic is what I've actually seen in my dream. Weird.

If you're bored, you can go to:

http://www.dreammoods.com/dreamdictionary/

Explosion:
To see explosions in your dream, signifies a loss and displeasure in business. It may also mean that your repressed emotions and rage have come to the surface in a forceful and violent manner.
To dream that your face becomes blackened or mutilated by the explosion, signifies that will be confronted with unjust accusations and may suffer the consequences.
To dream that you are enveloped in flames or blown up into the air by an explosion, forewarns that unworthy friends will violate your rights and abuse your confidence.
To hear the sound of a loud explosion, but you did not see it, signifies that your troubles will soon be replaced with tranquility after you have overcome some small obstacle.

Fire (this one is pretty freaky, because it really represents stuff I've been feeling lately, especially about seeing my parents' house on fire)
Depending on the context of your dream, to see fire in your dream can symbolizes destruction, passion, desire, illumination, transformation, enlightenment, or anger. It may suggest that something old is passing and something new is entering your life. Your thoughts and views are changing. In particular, if the fire is under control or contained in one area, it is a metaphor of your own internal fire and inner transformation. It also represents your drive and motivation.
To dream of that you are being burned by fire, indicates that your temper is getting out of control. Some issue or situation is burning you up inside.
To dream that a house is on fire, indicates that you need to undergo some transformation. If you have recurring dreams of your family house on fire, then it suggests that you are still not ready for the change or that you are fighting against the change. Alternatively, it highlights passion and the love of those around you.
To dream that you put out a fire, signifies that you will overcome your obstacles in your life through much work and effort.

Flower
To see colorful flowers in your dream, signifies kindness, compassion, gentleness, pleasure, beauty, and gain. It is also symbolic of perfection and spirituality. Your dream may be an expression of love, joy and happiness. Alternatively, flowers may denote a particular time or season. If the flowers are white, then it symbolizes sadness.
To see withered or dead flowers in your dream, denotes disappointments and gloomy situations. You may not be utilizing your full potential and talents.
To dream that you receive a bouquet of flowers, represents respect, approval, admiration, and rewards.
To see flowers blooming in barren soil, signifies that energy and cheerful nature will enable you to overcome your grievances.

Fence
To see a fence in your dream, signifies an obstacle or barrier that may be standing on your path. You may feel confined and restricted in expressing yourself. Are you feeling fenced in? Alternatively, it may symbolize a need for privacy. You may want to shut off the rest of the world.
To dream that you are climbing to the top of a fence, denotes success. If you climb over the fence, then it indicates that you will accomplish your desires via not so legitimate means.
To dream that you are building a fence, signifies a solid foundation for future wealth through your economical and industrious character.
To dream that you fall from a fence, denotes that you are in way over your head in regards to some project which you are incapable of dealing with.
To see animals jumping over a fence into an enclosure, foretells that you will receive assistance from an unexpected source. To see them jumping out, signifies loss in trade.

Bus
To dream that you are waiting for a bus, indicates a temporary setback in achieving your personal goals.
To dream that you are at the bus station, suggests that you have reached some new level or stage in your emotional or physical life.
To dream that you are riding a bus, implies that you are going along with the crowd. You are lacking originality and are taking no control over where your life is taking.
To dream that you are in a bus accident, signifies that you will find yourself in an embarrassing situation. Your finances will be effected in an adverse way causing your much frustration.

Garden
To see a vegetable or fruit garden in your dream, indicates that your hard work and diligence will pay off in the end. It is also symbolic of stability and inner growth.
To see a flower garden in your dream, represents tranquility, comfort, love and domestic bliss. You need to be nurturing.
To see sparse, weed-infested garden, suggests that you have neglected your spiritual needs. You are not on top of things.

Mother
To see your mother in your dream, represents the nurturing aspect of your own character. Mothers offer shelter, comfort, life, guidance and protection. Some people may have problems freeing themselves from their mothers and are thus seeking their own individuality and development.
To dream that you are having a conversation with your mother, denotes a matter that has preoccupied your mind and you are not sure how to deal with it in your waking life. It indicates unresolved problems that still need to be worked out with your mother.
To hear your mother call you in our dream, signifies that you have been negligent in your duties and responsibilities. You are pursuing down the wrong path.
To hear your mother cry in your dream, denotes some illness or affliction.

Naked
To dream that you are naked, denotes the fear of being found out and exposed about your activities and misjudgment.
To dream that you suddenly discover your nudity and are trying to cover up, signifies your vulnerability to a situation.
To see a naked person in your dream and you are disgusted by it, signifies some anxiety about discovering the naked truth about that person or situation. It may also foretell of an illicit love affairs, loss of prestige and scandalous activities. On the other hand, if you do not have any problem with another's nudity, then it implies that you see through people and accept them for who and what they are.

Bracelet
To see or wear a bracelet in your dream, refers to an expression of deep passion and fire. The dream also highlights your need to reach out to others. It is a sign that you need to rekindle old friendships and to call up an old friend that you haven't heard from in awhile.
To see a broken bracelet in your dream, suggests that you tend to sacrifice your own comfort and happiness for others.

Ring
To see a ring on your finger in your dream, signifies your commitment to a relationship or a successful new endeavor. It also indicates your loyalty to your ideals, responsibilities, and beliefs.
To see a broken ring in your dream, signifies an attack on your loyalty. It is indicative of disappointments and separation.
To dream that you lose a ring or someone has stolen your ring, suggests that you will lose something or someone near and dear to you.

Arrow
To see an arrow in your dream, symbolizes how to reach targets and the goals that you have set for yourself. Arrows also signify an end to suffering and the beginning of new-found pleasures and festivities.
To see an old or broken arrow, symbolizes disappointments and severed relationships. Alternatively, it may indicate that you have changed your mind about some decision.
To see a two-headed arrow in your dream, signifies opposing ideas and viewpoints. You need to consider both sides.
In the Freudian school of thought, an arrow symbolizes the penis and its ability to penetrate.
*** (haha, Ian, you were wearing a ring in my dream with an arrow on it!!! haha)

I remember sitting in lecture, overwhelmed with ideas and questions, feeling like I could make a difference. Be heard for once. Feeling like I could change the world.

Don't all students feel as if they are the ones who will change the world?

A part of me has disappeared, that bright light in me seems to have faded, that light that would change the world. Was I just fooling myself? Did I really think I was so bright? So driven? So passionate?

What am I doing to myself? Where did I go?

What am I currently learning about? What am I "keeping up with?" What new things have I learned about recently?

I've come to realize that I want more out of my life. I want the stability of a 9-5 job, but the flexibility to do what I want with my passion.

Do you remember graduating high school? University/College? Do you remember that pride you felt during those speeches? That overwhelming feeling that took you by surprise and left tears in your eyes? It gave you that push that you would go on.

I would go on.

And do better things.

I will make a difference, even if it is to change only one person's life.

I am the day dreamer, the fool who keeps on believing she can change the world, the hopeless girl who has not forgotten. I will go on somehow...and I will change something. I will make something better.

Even if they do not notice. I do not care.

Healing the Neighbourhood: An Article

Here is an article concerning the area in which Ian and I sort of live in (near by) - Downtown East.

It deals with the homeless situation in Toronto and how people living downtown are outraged with the homeless people.

I'm quite torn on this topic...I want to give the homeless attention and feel that something more can be done to improve their situation, but at the same time, I can't help but feel frustrated with them. Is it mental illness that has affected and their family that has abandoned them that they can no longer function in society? Or is it due to the many poor choices they have made a few too many times? Both? Do we help them? Or do we sweep them under some rug so we no longer have to see them?

I'd like to hear from you, regarding your opinion on what should be done with this situation.

Cheers,
Annie
WHAT WHO WHEN WHERE & WHY ?

ACTION 4
BALANCED COMMUNITIES DOWNTOWN EAST
c/o 237 Carlton Street Toronto, ON M5A 2L2
a4bcde@yahoo.com
July 20, 2004

SAVE US FROM THE SALVATION ARMY

Residents and property owners, neighbourhood and business associations, parents councils in Downtown East strongly oppose the conversion of the Jarvis/Shuter site to a huge Salvation Army compound. The plans are being presented to the community on July 21,2004 at the Harbour Light Open House between 6-8 p.m., and conveniently at a time when most residents, businesses, schools take their summer break. On their behalf, A4BSDE says:

NO to 100 units of transitional housing in an area where social housing dominates - whole streets, Berkley, Ontario, Shuter, Dundas, Sherbourne, Pembroke, George, Jarvis, Mutual, Dalhousie, Gerrard are filled with every possible facility for the destitute, the sick, the disadvantaged.

We say NO to "transiting' the homeless form the corner of Sherbourne/Queen to Jarvis/Shuter.

We say NO to bringing more addicts (100 beds) to the Moss Park area, the hub of drug use and drug dealing.

We say NO to the Salvation Army occupying every corner of our neighbourhood - Maxwell Meighen, Gateway, Harbour Lights, Banton Lodge, Richmond, River, while the vast majority of the people the Army serves are out of town and out of province.

We say NO to the Salvation Army creating another compound for federal offenders (53) at Sherbourne/Wellesley when the limit for a residential care facility is 10 residents.

We say NO to the Salvation Army locating their high risk facilities next to schools (Our Lady Of Lourdes, The Gabrielle Roy, Lord Duffrin,) community centres (John Innes, St. Jamestown, Regent Park) and parks ( Allan Gardens, Moss Park, St. James Park).

We say NO to new chapels and churches when so many congregations in the area cannot sustain themselves: St. James's Cathedral, Metropolitan Church, All Saints and for survival, enter into "unholy" alliances.

We say NO to the warehousing of problem populations - Seaton House, Maxwell Meighen Centre, Springboards, Street Havens, House Links, Fred Victors, Good Shepherds, St. Mary's, Covenant Houses, and countless nameless facilities located south of Bloor, east of Yonge north of King and west of River.

We say NO to creating ghettos for the undesirables - the poor, the sick, the abandoned. The responsibility to respond to their plight and the risk associated with their problems must be shared by all citizens, not just those who have no voice.

We say NO to creating another Regent Park or St. Jamestown by locating thousands of substandard single occupancy units, countless social housing facilities in Downtown East.

We say NO to Mayor Miller allocating taxpayer funded legal and planning resources to fight the laws the city institutes in defense of balanced neighbourhoods, as the current OMB appeal against the Salvation Army's Banton Lodge expansion demonstrates.

We Say YES to the media investigating the "poverty sector", its huge budgets and its continued failure to tackle the problems associated with the homeless and disadvantaged.

We say YES to accountability of elected officials, government bureaucracy and the charity sector.

We say YES to the assessment of the homeless sector (promised but undelivered), so effective measures can be put in place to address their wide range of problems.

We say YES to the Auditor General auditing the budgets allocated for the homeless - $120 million annually in Toronto alone; $8,5 million for Sojourn House - a refuge for refugees; SCIPI funding; $300,000 for coffee and blankets to illegal encampments.

We say YES to policies facilitating business investment, homeownership, creating jobs, and YES balancing this neighbourhood as other districts in the city were given that chance - Yorkville, Distillery, St Lawrence, Upper Jarvis, Church/Wellesley. No high risk operations are going there!

WE, IN DOWNTOWN EAST, SAY ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!

For more information, contact us at a4bcde@yahoo.com or info@gardendistrict.ca
Joice Guspie can be reached at 416 921-0857 andEva Curlanis-Bart at 416 367-0027
April 5, 2004Hon. Bill GrahamMPP Toronto Centre-Rosedale